Broken Wings

If you do not know me or have no interest in knowing me do not bother reading much of this. I dont mean this in a bad way nor am I implying you a bad person.

Im often told Im selfish, inconsiderate and arrogant. In you cant read the words:

Hurt, shattered, broken...
Ignored and misunderstood
You have destroyed me
Rejected me
Silenced me
I've been to lost to be saved
But I still wait behind for you
I hold your hand when you are blind
And lost within your lies
Pulled my wings apart
But I can still save you

I'm going to give you a little insight into what Im really like. You may think I sound depressed but Im not. I have been recently because of alot of bad matters and people I hang out with dont want to realise that.
Let me explain this- I am part of a very big group of people in my school and there seems to be one girl who is in charge, even though there are very few who like her. Everyone in that group talks about their friends behind their backs and this one girl has a way of making everyone do so. Im the one who sits off to the side and doesnt talk. Why? Because I dont like to get involved in all the stupid fights that came about because of stupid reasons. I used to be the one who would talk to people when they were upset and hug them and tell them its alright and its not their fault. But because of all the selfish people I dont do that anymore. To alot of people, even those online, I probably seem like some strange person on a sugar high. Thats how I act around others when they want me to be like that so I keep them happy. Im also the one who, if someone starts yelling at or being a bitch to, doesnt say anything back and just listens to what they have to say. Do I sound weak now? This is because I dont care what people say about me. I have had alot of rumours made up about me that I never bother to stop- most commonly that I have a crush on someone right up to everyone calling me a bisexual in a christian school.

That's me in the picture and I actually do dress like that. A while back I got into a strange conversation with some friends I rarely see anymore about what kind of wings we would have if we did. I was told that I would have broken wings. The reason I have posted this on DA yet dont care what people think of this and whether anyone comments or not is because when I try to voice my opinion I am shot down and turned on. I have quite a few friends who do look on this so this may be the best way to tell them that because they are the types who take joy in making others feel bad they are completely wasting their time on me. I dont care.

I say it again, I am not depressed as so many think I am. I just let others feel satisfied because I see no point in getting involved in their stupid fights nor do I want to be dragged into them. I know they will always see me as someone who doesnt care and doesnt want to be involved, but I am aware of everything that goes on in that group. I act clueless about alot so I dont have to put up with you. Think about the words and keep that in mind. I am treated badly but I am still there for you even though you dont realise it and I always will be.

And a little tip to anyone who did bother reading this. If you get frustrated, dont start a screaming match with someone or make up rumours. You get angry and forget about what's really happening and things just get worse. Keep a clear mind and dont let them get to you and everything will be much easier